The uNBEComing of Becoming Me

Journal Entry #1: 2020: A glimpse into the moment I began to unravel.

The next few essays over the following months will be the actual writings from my journal that I started back in 2020, when I began to realize a shift in my energy, in how I viewed the world and myself, and how I was experiencing it.

It was a spiritual shift I was very aware of.
It surprised me, but I wasn’t scared.
I was hungering for a deep inner change. I welcomed it.

I’m sharing these journal entries because if what I went through can serve as an entryway to your own self-discovery, and make you feel less alone in this world, then for me, it’s worth sharing my journey.

These journals that I’ll be sharing with you are written exactly how they were written then.
I haven’t edited them.
No corrections.
I wanted to leave them as raw and real as they were in the moment.

It was me discovering the woman that was trying to emerge.
I knew I was no longer the woman I had been for so long,
and I was ready — ready for this unbecoming to make room for the woman I was becoming.

I’ll be releasing one entry at a time over the next few months.
Some will be short.
Some might feel long.
Some may not make sense, as I was trying to make sense of it all.
But all of them are pieces of me.

I just wanted to share myself with you.
To show you how

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came into being,
how I slowly stepped into a deeper way of being and living,
allowing the parts of me that have been quietly calling to step forward and introduce themselves,
the parts of me I am longing to meet —
beyond any role or label, beyond what has defined me before.
Sometimes you have to go back, just to remember where it started, and to see how far you’ve come.

Thank you for being here.
Thank you for joining me at the beginning.
Because really, this was just a beginning
and we have many beginnings, as we keep evolving into who we are meant to be.
THE uNBEComing of BECOMING ME.

February 22nd, 2020
This time in my life, I am very aware of an awakening that is happening inside of me.

I can’t put it into words yet, but it is a longing for deeper things.

I feel like a new me wants to be born,
that the Sherry that exists now, her time is up.
It’s time for something new to form.

I long to see myself in those who are deeply spiritual.
I long for truth, something that calls to me, but I don’t know where it is.

It’s not physical, and yet it will manifest in the physical once that spiritual side of me develops and comes forth.

I must remain open, present, quiet, patient, curious, humble,
and ask God for the courage to step into the unknown.

Sue Monk Kidd has been a huge catalyst in my spiritual understanding of what I am experiencing.

I only hope I can come into the fullness,
and become the woman I want to become.

She is strong.

With warmth and wonder,

Sherry🦋

“Momtemplative, my publication on Substack, where I invite readers to slow down and contemplate life, from womanhood, motherhood, and everything in between. Because, let’s be honest, there’s a lot that happens in the in-between.”